Life's a mysterious cycle , perhaps , an unending cycle.
We connect to some people at certain point in life and it'll bound to break.
In hopes that someday we'll come together again and have a great laugh at our own foolishness albeit the great fights we went through.
Perhaps, I now have a new set of thinking towards life or maybe I've grown used to those negative emotions that once raged through me.
I used to be the one that be mad or depressed at the slightest change in life, I used to blame everyone apart from myself and such, plunged my life into sadness.
Maybe , now that I understand the different facet of life, I see the light.
I understand that people DO come and go. As they always say , " Easy come, easy go." I know that everything in life happens for a reason and we would have to bear every consequences that comes along with the decision we made. I figured that life's a endless rat race.
And most importantly , if you can't tolerate me, just let me go, I won't freaking tie you down.
To speak the truth , I don't like people tolerating me , I wish you would just scream it to my face instead. At least I would get the hint and would pull away and leave, and be alone.
I love being alone, I do. When I'm alone, no one could hurt me , no one could judge me, no one could degrade me .

For that being so , I digress.

Sigh , today's been a tough day ! But amidst the hectic college life I'm going through , there's actually events that would make me wear a smile on my face !
For example , I scored 91 for my recent math test ! And that deserves a standing ovation. Just saying !
And... My lecturer just complimented me for having a good voice and asked whether I would wanna emcee for an upcoming event. This totally made my day ! And no, it's not like I'm blowing my own horn or anything like that. But i really do like nice compliments . Sigh , I'm not weird, am I ? #smh

Why am I a Cancer , or perhaps , why do I have Cancer as my zodiac sign?
I reckon i should be given the rights to pick my traits and personality based on my zodiac sign.
For the record, i would prefer being a Leo instead of a sensitive , emotional crab.
Well , maybe , just maybe , if sensitivity wasn't a part of my traits and personality , i would've lived a better, happier life?
I'm sensitive and I over think every single thing that revolves around me , every little glimpse of emotion that people around me shows and I tend to care too much .
Perhaps , this sums up to my life being a bad movie stuck on replay all along.
I tend to put the blame on myself when things don't turn out right and I withdraw from my friends when i feel a hint of hostility towards me.
Thus , leads to friends and acquaintance leaving my life in a short period of time .
My friend once said , " You're so sociable , I'm sure you have plenty of friends."
But deep inside, my thoughts screamed "What makes you think i have friends?"
Truth is , everyone applies the 'easy come - easy go' policy in my life , it's like a routine, or perhaps a cycle.
I meet someone , we talk , we get to know each other , we turn into close friends , he/she leaves.
So I guess I have all the rights to not relate to anyone and build walls around me as I've grown cold and tired to all of these bullshits in my life .