I am that insecure , fickle minded , sensitive teenager and you should've known better.
They say , promises are lies with a ribbon tied onto it, perhaps , it is.
I'm sorry that I've promised that I'll never ever be mad at you, i guess i was wrong, i was being ignorant , hoping that we'll never get into a major fight.
But who knew, a misunderstanding due to my insecurity would cause such a huge mess?
Maybe , it's true that relationships are bound to break , maybe it's time to take a breather , to know each other better.
But i can't . Like humans , I'm an insecure , possessive , territorial creature.
When i find out that I'm not a part of something , I'll escape , I'll flee. I'll hide away from the group. They say , trust takes years to build and seconds to break . I'm just surprised that the 2nd major fight would come so soon. I still remember the first fight we had in form 4 , which i was left there , hanging, to fend for myself , fighting my insecurities with the hope that everything will be fine. To be frank , that bothered me for quite a while . Actually , every fight we got in , it bothers me a lot . But , this time around, I'm growing immune to those feelings , practice makes perfect? This shows how distant we've grown , it's like we're heading for a downfall.
But i still refuse to accept the fact , i would still wanna be that ignorant , careful friend of yours . I miss those late night strolls around town , i miss those stupids things we do all day. I miss everything we had. I can't bare to let it vanish due to a stupid fight we got in, it's not worth it. Remember the times we spent? I hope you still do.
Like the candle you burnt out , I'm bound to wither off your life, but I'll still be there waiting for you , hoping that things would come around.
I miss you , best friend .
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