I thought i was fine all along ,
I thought i was so high up , with no room for failures, no room for mistakes , no point to fall .
But at this point in life , it just fell apart , everything is a lie to me. Every damn thing.
Everything, even my sanity is betraying me.
Life has taken a toll on me ,
How naive of me to believe that i'm already numb to the heartbreaks , be it friends or family.
Although i try so hard to ignore the feeling deep inside , i'm actually hurting , bit by bit and it's accumulated to an extend that i couldn't handle .
To an extend that my wounds would make me tear once in awhile .
I tend to convince myself that everything is fine , everything is real , everyone is there for me , every damn thing is meant to be .
To realize that i was living a world full of lies , along with a heart full of plasters and scars.
I would love to put the blame on everyone , on everyone that made me feel so screwed up .
But i can't , cause i'm that non existent person on earth , the one which no one cares about , the one that's left to die .