Okay , i back-spaced my essay long thoughts about my relationship between me and my friends. Cause the things i typed portrays me as someone weak , and i'm pretty much done with that. I used to seek solace in my friends, and still do , but the trust isn't there anymore.I feel like withdrawing right now, pulling out from cliques and society . The day came when the risk to bloom was more painful to remain as a bud. Perhaps , to be and live like a castaway. I do notice that i make a big fuss over small little things , and it's because i'm still insecure. To you, maybe i'm much of a spoilt brat inside but the least you could do is keep your own opinion to yourself. And that, would be much appreciated.
Walls are constantly built not to keep people away from me, but to see if anyone care to break it down. I'm constantly bothered by the thought of my friends leaving me, but is anyone afraid of losing me? I highly doubt so. I try... i tried ... so hard... and it's time to give up.
Life and holidays has definitely taken a toll on me .
On the side note, I have the liberty to block & delete you. Which i just did as it feels pretty good doing so . Since we're not seeing each other anymore, this marks the day you're out of my life, bye ! So, one less problem in my life.