Confessions ,
something everyone should be scared of.
Afraid that the confession you just made would change other people's opinion towards yourself or vice versa.
It's like shedding your own pretentious mask to get people to accept who you are.
Thus, having to face criticism by fellow homosapiens .
Criticism too, come in different shapes and sizes.
Yes , I admit that i have gazillion things to confess about but I'm not that brave .
Just to step out of my comfort zone takes up more than mere courage itself.
The comfort zone that I've built up for years , the protective wall of bubbles around me.
I don't think it's worth it.
Friday, November 12, 2010
Sunday, November 7, 2010
Let's just get away from the normal 'hi-bye' routine . Shall we?
Last time i checked, it was 94813943812943 years ago since my last blog post.
So i've decided to start over a new page, to turn over a new leaf , to build a new mirror image of myself, as i'm stepping into a new phase in 2 months time.
I'm finally done high school life, 5 years glided over , such surreal, mean memories, yet there's piece and parcel that i would love to cherish. I still remember the moments which i contemplated to enter my current high school, which is SMK Taman SEA(F.Y.I , It neither resembles a taman or a sea) But , being as naive as i was at the age of 12 , i decided to follow the path my 'friends' took and enrolled at that school. Speaking of those 'friends'? I've lost contact with most of them even though i see them at school, everyday. We stay a safe distance away from each other, building up invisible ,impenetrable walls. Well, maybe i did . I was running away from the truth , the truth about best friends lasting forever , turned out to be a fairy tale which never did come true. So i'll prolly come clean about it. Throughout these few years in high school, friends came and go, like a gust of wind.New faces popped up in my life from no where and got a steady role in my high school life . My form 1 life was so save and secure, everyone was too scared to cause a scene , or to cause trouble . TBH, the worst thing i did in form 1 was going to a cyber cafe. How bad could that be , right? And soon, i was used to the ups and down of it.High school's definitely a life changing process most people would've to undergo.Throughout high school, i'm pretty glad cause i had my fair share of friends and attention.Yes, attention. High school taught me how to be an attention whore ; how to stir up an unnecessary fight ; how to treat people you dislike coldly ; how to betray someone's trust ; how to care about how people think about me ; how to be judgmental . Those were some of the bad traits which i picked up throughout my high school adventure, but there's always pros when there's cons. Through this metamorphosis process in life, i've learnt to stand up , to speak out , to socialize , to change into someone i didn't know. I'm much of a stranger to myself.
They say high school life is a phase that you would find out who you are , what you gonna be.But i don't seem to like my new self.
Could i ask for a refund ?
Last time i checked, it was 94813943812943 years ago since my last blog post.
So i've decided to start over a new page, to turn over a new leaf , to build a new mirror image of myself, as i'm stepping into a new phase in 2 months time.
I'm finally done high school life, 5 years glided over , such surreal, mean memories, yet there's piece and parcel that i would love to cherish. I still remember the moments which i contemplated to enter my current high school, which is SMK Taman SEA(F.Y.I , It neither resembles a taman or a sea) But , being as naive as i was at the age of 12 , i decided to follow the path my 'friends' took and enrolled at that school. Speaking of those 'friends'? I've lost contact with most of them even though i see them at school, everyday. We stay a safe distance away from each other, building up invisible ,impenetrable walls. Well, maybe i did . I was running away from the truth , the truth about best friends lasting forever , turned out to be a fairy tale which never did come true. So i'll prolly come clean about it. Throughout these few years in high school, friends came and go, like a gust of wind.New faces popped up in my life from no where and got a steady role in my high school life . My form 1 life was so save and secure, everyone was too scared to cause a scene , or to cause trouble . TBH, the worst thing i did in form 1 was going to a cyber cafe. How bad could that be , right? And soon, i was used to the ups and down of it.High school's definitely a life changing process most people would've to undergo.Throughout high school, i'm pretty glad cause i had my fair share of friends and attention.Yes, attention. High school taught me how to be an attention whore ; how to stir up an unnecessary fight ; how to treat people you dislike coldly ; how to betray someone's trust ; how to care about how people think about me ; how to be judgmental . Those were some of the bad traits which i picked up throughout my high school adventure, but there's always pros when there's cons. Through this metamorphosis process in life, i've learnt to stand up , to speak out , to socialize , to change into someone i didn't know. I'm much of a stranger to myself.
They say high school life is a phase that you would find out who you are , what you gonna be.But i don't seem to like my new self.
Could i ask for a refund ?
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